Demoralized

I'm completely demoralized and depleted of any hope I ever had. Whatever credibility I had, and whatever self-pride I ever had of myself is now gone. I haven't the strength nor the motivation to produce anything worth noting anymore, not in my life, or my work, or my self. My life is slowly being sucked away with every breath I take. I've come to a point where I'm actually looking forward to ceasing to exist. I'm not who I was, I'm merely a shadow of what I was, and that shadow is slowly dissipating into oblivion.